Body Shaming: Skinny to Morbid…

I have been from one extreme to the other, much unhealthier, side of the scale. I’ve been called gorgeous, beautiful, stunning, pig in a pen, chuck-a-shuffle master, heifer, and much more.

Since I was a kid I had body dis-morphia. When I would be my healthiest I thought I was extremely overweight, and now that I am, unfortunately , considered morbidly obese I feel it, but don’t see it all the time.

10458554_10204723818200397_4857389424109423006_nIt’s the same old story that you hear from most people that are morbidly obese. I blamed myself for something; my parents divorce. Soon became, very much an emotional eater. Didn’t realize I stacked on the pounds. When I realized the pounds my life became the famous Yo-Yo Diets; Aktins, Dukin, Powell, Nutrisystem, Isagenix, South Beach, DASH, food for your blood type, the list goes on… If it has a name to it I probably have a book or research on it.

I found that after coming off of them I gained all the weight right back. It wasn’t that I went back to eating horrible, but the weight came back just as fast. Which in return, if I gained back ten pounds it turned into fifteen pounds which I would turn to food to comfort. All that hard work for nothing. Down the drain it went.

Anorexia? Had it. Bulimia?  That too. Still to this day when I’m sick and puking it makes me go back to this dark place.

I weighed 120 pounds at 5’8″ tall-average. I was considered underweight in the picture above.

Now, four months ago I gave birth to another son, named Grayson. I am now officially the heaviest I have ever been in my life. This isn’t who I’m suppose to be. I’m not suppose to be the Mommy that doesn’t go out and play with her kids on the playground, because she’s afraid another kid will say something mean about me to child. They deserve the best of me. Someone who shows they love themselves; just as much as I love them.

My college friend, Stephanie, posted that she was interested in going to the Disney Princess Half Marathon. You have to complete each mile within 16 minutes. Being completely out of shape, and already going next year to Disney World. I decided that will be my goal for 2019. That gives me seventeen months to get to my goal weight. Plus, I used to run, but I don’t think I would come near 16 minute miles; let alone 13.1 times doing it. I know a lot of people do the run/walk method for it, but my goal is to run the whole time. Unless, I’m taking awesome pictures of Cinderella’s Castle or Disney princesses.

This is my journey. It will be long, tears, lots of sweat, blood, blisters, freezing cold, hot and humid, but I will get through it. My boys deserve the best of me, and having to be on bed rest the beginning of the year due to complications in my pregnancy. My legs could use a good stretch. So it’s time to charge up the FitBit and be held accountable for what I do and what goes into my mouth.

Will you join me? Comment below- what helps you stay motivated? If you want to join in on losing weight for good? Don’t forget to follow me!

 -Theresa Rose

 

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